“Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;”
Full Moon Sagittarius: May 29, 2018
Mercury in Gemini: May 29, 2018 – June 13, 2018
We assume we have this idea of “choice.” We assume we can clearly, logically decide to take one route instead of another, weighing the future “good” and “bad” well enough to decide what is best for us. We believe we can rebel and take the road less traveled, less trodden by the fearful. Perpetual adventurers in the great mystery, we hope to find the mental clarity that will shed light on our way. We feel we know that traditional routes have led to a decay in our world – common pilgrimages leading us to temples of old gods come to full corruption in our modern paradigm. There are no signposts. There are merely other weary travelers telling us about other roads, traveled and leading to dead ends that they are returning from. There are few holy journies anymore, and it seems that all roads have been traveled. Where is a pioneer to go?
Full Moon opposition Sun conjunct Mercury in Gemini:
“Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,”
You are presented with an infinite amount of roads, so many that the possible connections that can be made are rather overwhelming. One could lead to possible bliss, the other to a lifetime of torture. At first glance, neither may be what it seems, or all routes may lead to all of these experiences in varying doses. A road full of hardship could actually be your route to bliss, and an easy, lotus-eating route could be your road to another lifetime of standing in one place. You could ditch society altogether and wander like the Dervish of old, swearing yourself to the love of the ALL, a poet in the language of mysticism. Or you could grow from staying static, like a hearty tree; you could build a village with those you love and care for, hoping to develop a society that runs closer to the values of nature – the tormented desire of everyone’s biology.
We all know this isn’t our last stop, this crumbling society full of static nothingness. We live in a world where careers are mere mini-games in some churning machine to nowhere. All of our energy wasted there does nothing for the personal or collective spirit of the world. The warrior’s path has been dubbed the “military” or “police force,” mere tools of the state instead of power for the people.
There is a popular idea that has been permeating the meme-o-sphere, originally branded by Tolkein, “All who wander are not lost.” Wandering aimlessly itself has somehow become the adventure in a world devoid of pioneering. There is no “goal” or “place” we are all trying to get to, rather, seeing where our heart and intuition take us- an unconscious, instinctual blossoming as opposed to a highly mental, clear understanding of route. When you are faced with a decision, and your mind won’t shut up for a moment so that you can see where your gut is pulling you, it can get maddening. The sheer amount of data, of things you can do, of future you’s and future work – most of it is fickle illusion. This Sagittarius Full Moon has a great water bent to it – with Venus having moved into Cancer, Neptune in Pisces making aspects to the moon, and a grand trine in water, it is trying to show us that our vision can come only when we empty ourselves and welcome whatever comes without judgement or fretting that we will lose all other paths.
We must be free in our wildness. We must move like water, flowing over obstacles, adapting to everything around us, soaking it in, learning from it, ease in movement and mannerism, a natural passion that leads us instead of a mental prison of what “should be” or “could be.”
Full Moon Inconjunct Venus in Cancer: Regret and remorse litter our paths. We should have done this thing, or we should have done that thing. We would be in a greater position of power or knowledge or a fiercer warrior for our people… The problem is, these are all mental traps, our self-inflicted paralysis of depression. The thing is, you would never truly know your mirrored misery in these paths as well. What more could you have? Money doesn’t bring satisfaction. “Success” doesn’t bring satisfaction (we can see this clearly with the lives those who have “succeeded” have led). We truly underestimate our self-worth, putting it into constructs that have been developed to eat us alive instead of inflaming us with passion and curiosity. Even if you chose to live the life you emotionally want to live, you will be crushed by the system in some way or another. Regret and remorse litter our paths, because we have been given a myth by our dominating paradigm that certain lives are good and others are bad. We have removed adventure and mystery from our lives, deeming those who seek it as those opposed to “adulthood.” Where are your assets? Where is your “career?” The spiritual journey of self-discovery, of discovery of the world, had been deemed a childish pursuit. The thing that is most misunderstood is that a child is most at ease in the world, instinctually playing to their curiosity and emotional needs – exploring for exploration’s sake, not to mine up gold for a purposeless company. This moon asks us to examine our path – is it truly one that has been “less taken,” or is it a prescribed medication to keep us anxious, depressed that we haven’t achieved some unachievable goal given to us so that we can become better robots for a machine going nowhere.
“And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.”
Full Moon Square Neptune in Pisces: The illusion is that we have a great many paths. All paths are the same path, leading to the same place, with just different villains and allies and labours. There is no “road less traveled.” This is a mere illusion. We want to comfort ourselves, thinking there is some road we can take that will make all the difference – will bring us great awareness and understanding. The thing is, it was never the road at all. It is always, and forever will be, the inner journey that truly gets us to the destination that we are all craving. We are resistant to this. We punch and scream at a world where we don’t have a clear definition of where we are going. The grand trine in water between Neptune, Venus, and Jupiter has us clawing for a way out of the drowning waters. But the way is to swim. It is a stream, and you may not know where it leads you, but following the subtlety is how you get on currents to somewhere substantial – to the larger waters and uncharted islands of the greater adventure. Putting too much mind, and not enough heart in your journey will lead to standing at the fork in the road until the leaves die and the paths are covered with the snow of age, or merely choosing a path because others before you are pointing the way. We believe that some particular advice will make all the difference, that somehow choosing one route or the other will change our entire lives, but really it is all an emotional journey. Are you willing to open up and listen to the forest, becoming a vessel for experience and true adventure, or are you more concerned with making your way somewhere that really doesn’t exist at all?
“I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.” – Robert Frost, “The Road Not Taken”