Full Moon in Aries – Eruption

Originally published on Heretical Oracles under the pen name Artemis.

“The lava of the volcano shot up hot from under the sea
One thing leads to another and you made an island of me.” – Fiona Apple, Werewolf

Effective Date: October 5, 2017

Here we are, animals in the cage of society raging to tear out of our stiff structures and blind courtesy. This is Libra season, and through this Venusian sign, we learn to compromise and diplomacy. Libra is our cultural face, “civilization,” he is a way for us all to cooperate together and learn true justice. But Aries, he acts on impulse and instinct. He is the pure power and blood of Mars and has a true lust for life. He is the animal side that we wish to hide away behind civilization, so we lie about him and keep it all hush hush. “Nope, there’s nothing wrong, not here, everything is fine, look over there, a lovely distraction!” Libra, needing to please everyone, sets up Machiavellian traps. But one day, because some scapegoat moves the earth, we all realize the animals that we truly are and must come face to face with our shadow side, and the blabbering of civilization falls deaf to our ears. We are awoken, and we finally snap, because if we cage our truest self away for too long we erupt

 

New Moon in Virgo – Voodoo Queen

Originally published on Heretical Oracles under the pen name Artemis.

“I don’t think that I was trying to entertain the reader more than I was trying to purge myself.” – Curtis Sittenfeld

Do you ever get the feeling that you want to scrub your soul clean?  You peel and you cut and you rip out all the tangled pieces and you still can’t seem to detach yourself from all the bullshit that surrounds you, day in and day out, wearing at your very bones like overzealous sandpaper.  It’s like you’ve been marked from birth, right on the fucking forehead, so that everyone you encounter can see your pain.  They can feel the gloom oozing off of you and the unclean feeling inside has made your skin pale and your clothes dirty and your belongings in disarray. It’s like no matter what you do, you are stuck with whatever sins have attached themselves to you…  Or are you?

The Sun (Ace of Swords) & Moon (Knight of Cups), Venus (Queen of Pentacles), Jupiter (Justice), Uranus (Knight of Swords), and Chiron (3 of Wands)-  Under this moon, the idea of “boundaries” seems to be consistently coming up – and lo and behold, I pull the Queen of Pentacles for Venus. Without boundaries, you become too porous and you allow other people’s gritty, nasty bullshit to penetrate through your delicate skin. You’re obviously the empathic type if you are reaching out to the aid of those around you, but what you need to realize is that injured people can subconsciously behave like vampires (and they’ll make excuse after excuse for their vampiric behavior). We’re all worn the fuck out right now, and the moon is fragile in Virgo – meaning you’re going to want to huddle away and work in your own dream world right now and that is perfectly fine. The world outside is harsh, people are harsher still, and we all need a period of recharging after the intensity of Leo/Virgo season.

We’re all walking around like burnouts right now and people are at their emotional wit’s end. This is where the idea of Hermit Virgo comes in… You need to stow away, do your work in your own space surrounded by things you love in your own order, and REST. If you are pushing yourself too much, giving all you can give to your job, to your friends, to whatever bum on the street that asks you for a cigarette, then you have essentially emptied yourself into a vessel. Now it is time to set strict boundaries and do your own work, study, plan, and set shit into motion for the autumn/winter and fill your empty vessel with what you really need, because this winter is going to be a fucking hard one, folks (just looking at the astrology for it has been giving us shivers). That last Pisces full moon drained the fuck out of the majority of us, and Chaotic bullshit has been coming left and right dislodging us from our path or giving us wild opportunities – one or the other, but are we too fucking tired and drained to take those opportunities?  Rest.  Rest, recharge, and get those fucking vampires out of your life. Honestly, aren’t you sick of having the help you give being thrown back in your face? The ones you care for need to learn how to appreciate you. And you, my friend, need to learn how to appreciate yourself and see yourself as a sovereign being who extends help because they are abundant and capable of doing so. I know, because you have felt so much pain, you want to help ease the pain of others. But sometimes you need to let go for a while so that both you and they can strengthen enough to keep going on the healing path.

Mercury (The Fool), Mars (10 of Swords), and Neptune (Ace of Pentacles)- Ah, fuck, more indication that we are just fucking worn the fuck out. But, hey, good news. Libra season is coming and with it the element of air. Things will get moving again, and this includes ideas and projects that have been stuck. Right now you have one enemy and one enemy only – yourself. You are going to need to ground the fuck out of your being right now, and that includes killing your illusions that you are somehow not capable of holding onto your burdens anymore. As the Christians say, God only gives us what we are capable of dealing with, and honestly, this is on point. Your experiences are what is going to shape you into a powerhouse figure that can actually make a change in this world. If you only had to deal with easy breezy situations in your lifetime, you would be some rich housewife at the Cape getting trashed off of White Zinf for the second time that day because you have done about 5 minutes of soul growth your entire life. It is the hardship, the struggle, that breeds a hero. The planets are egging you on – “Take a chance, here, we have provided you with chances,” but you keep on doggedly running toward the shit you are habituated to. During this moon, you need to learn to BREAK YOUR HABITS and make new ones. You are feeling drained and run down because what you have been doing has reached its end.

It is time to die.  Create the ritual space for it. This is a perfect New Moon rite. Go home and surround yourself with symbols of all the things you want to change in your life, say goodbye to them one by one, and go bury them in the dirt under the black moon. Mourn, as mourning is nurturing the soul, and begin your new life. Don’t forget, on many levels, you chose this life. You chose this life for a reason that nags and tugs at you during the darkest hours of the night. Move toward that reason, and don’t let go. This is 2017, the year of the Star. Our hope is being decimated so that it can be tested. How far will you keep running toward your pole star before you give up and think you are never getting out of the forest?  How deep is your will to live?  How desperately do you truly want to create change in this world?  That sort of big, dramatic change doesn’t come easy. And it comes with a lot of grueling preparation… Do you think you can lift a 200 lb weight without months and months of training?  Fuck no. So what makes you feel like you can lift the weight of the world without these trials?

Saturn (Queen of Cups) and Plut0 (Page of Wands)- It’s time to reach right into your psyche and become a metaphysician. What are the ghosts you have been projecting into your life?  Do you, for some reason, believe that there is no spirit in matter, that there is no healing in pain, that there is no point at all to this existence here on this plane?  My friend, you are right. You are a mere insignificant pebble on the surface of a monstrous giant, so that should assure you that you have no fucking idea what is really significant and what isn’t. You may feel that you need some sort of career to fulfill you. Trust me, some of the most successful people in the world become blubbering fools who would shit in buckets and watch movie re-runs day in and day out (just ask Howard Hughs).  Not a single soul on this planet knows how to be “happy” because there is no final state of “happiness.” You need to become acceptant of the cycles of time, of the cycles of your body, of the cycles of your emotions and listen. Happiness, like sadness, comes in waves. We can’t just respect one without respecting the other. Misery pushes creation, and loneliness pushes appreciation.

We decided to leave Eden for a reason because it was a fabrication and we wanted true knowledge. You keep seeking answers to this universe because you, too, do not want to live in a fabrication constructed by society to keep you enslaved in other people’s paradigms. Do not beat yourself up because your successes aren’t measured as such by the brain-dead zombies of general society that laugh at you while you read Nietzche and scoff at you when you talk about how our government rapes and pilages in countries so far away we need a tv screen to acknowledge it.

In short, do not live in lies, and that includes your own personal life. Do not pretend your job is worth it just because it pays well when you know it is killing you every single day. Don’t stay with someone just because you feel like you can’t do any better, and don’t keep friends around just because you don’t know what you would do without them – no matter how much time and energy you have put into them. It is time to think about yourself. It is time to draw upon your own sovereign power and to see just what you can do when you burn the blood sucking leaches off of you, and live unabashed to be yourself. You are a wolf among sheep, now start acting like it.

Full Moon in Pisces – My Madonna

Originally published on Heretical Oracles under the pen name Artemis.

Finding new life through the profound acceptance of death is the paradoxical solution.  In paradox, we stand at the threshold of life’s resurgence.  Holding fast the divergent reigns of painful dissonance, we enter realms of deeper healing. –Cedrus Monte

We come to this Pisces Full Moon with the northwest on fire, flooding in the south, a madman playing with bombs and a clown taunting him, and a massive storm bearing down on our eastern front.  The largest storm ever recorded and the largest wild fire in a century are engulfing our country as this Lunation comes to a head. Do you all remember that Solar Eclipse that just swooped across the U.S.A. two weeks ago?  This is the swell of that wave. We have a Pisces full moon with multiple planets in Virgo, so this is dark feminine territory; her tendrils of water pushing us into engulfment. While we have ignored the dangers, drunk on our gluttony, she has begun to come out from the murky depths. We had our warnings, and unfortunately, the majority of us laughed. This is the see-saw of life, Heretics, and Pisces rules over karma. To cross this dangerous bridge, we must be ready to pay our toll.

The Sun (Knight of Wands) & Moon (Ace of Swords), Venus (Wheel of Fortune), Neptune (Ace of Pentacles), and Pluto (Queen of Swords)- Neurosis is common when too many planets are sitting in Virgo, but this can also magnify our issues in useful ways; we can finally begin correcting ourselves and our devotion to our craft. There are a lot of people who cannot handle this type of energy and snap like brittle bones. Their ego is so fragile that any magnification of their perceived flaws will rock them into an unstable state. There are also those who fall into deep neurosis when they witness profound events instead of assimilating them into their life. There is a humbling on both of these fronts that an inflexible ego cannot survive. Some people just don’t want to be humbled and would rather continue on their path even through madness (and fucking bat-shit they will get, swinging from one extreme to the other so that they don’t have to land again). This, we call, the Dark Night of the Soul, and it is an experience of profound darkness that comes when one is blinded by a revelation. I warn you of this because the Pisces full moon is a revelation, plain and simple, and one that will bring you closer to both your reality and your spirituality so you very much might end up 5 bottles in sleeping your bathtub. Revelations often hurt, as devotion always calls for suffering. You are being asked if you will accept the way things are and work with them, or if you will continue to live in a dreamscape and essentially become fodder. This Full Moon is a bitch slap back into reality through profound spirituality and destruction – a grounding (Neptune as Ace of Pentacles) and a reaping of truth from the depths (Pluto as Queen of Swords). Will you realize that it is with love that you keep getting reminded to come back down to earth?

When we look at the water signs we see birth (Cancer), death (Scorpio), and the other side, whatever that is (Pisces). Pisces is beyond death. We have come face to face with forces that are larger than us, and we must accept that and transform when we are called to or fight against it into madness (the dark side of Pisces). Things will die, and yet life carries on. Worlds are swallowed up whole, and new ones bubble up and rise from the depths. Mutable signs call us to transform, and with water, it is through emotional drowning (yay). For those of you with addictions, this full moon may send you over the edge. Running won’t come without its repercussions. This moon will chase you with a chainsaw through the cornfield, and it’s not even Scorpio season yet. When you admit to your problems, you will be renewed with a life like never before. You will know that you are not beyond repair, and with destruction comes the ability to build something better and stronger in its wake. It is like a wound that scabs over, a scar that makes the skin less brittle. There is a profoundly spiritual experience to be had here if you are open to it.

Mercury (7 of Wands), Mars (3 of Pentacles), Uranus (7 of Cups), and Chiron (The Fool)- The most infected wounds are going to be the ones that this full moon wishes to wash. Unfortunately, disinfecting is painful.  In order to heal, we have to have the insight. We fear being wrong because being wrong may bring death, but once you have accepted death as inevitable you can have the courage to rise above it. Confidence in your skills comes from the practice of them, then you can believe enough in yourself to actually try. Mercury is finally direct, and his retrograde gave you the mental review you needed in order to approach our next challenge. Your decision to start working on your devotion to your path will become heightened by Mercury’s motion into diligent Virgo. Yes, getting anywhere requires work and dedication, and you will be reminded of this more than once by getting smacked with reality slap after reality slap until you make moves. Remember, Mars is in Virgo as well and making cutting remarks.

How can your time be better spent? How can you ground yourself in reality instead of floating away into Facebook scrolling hypnosis? Getting going is the hard part, trust me, I know (immovable Mars in Taurus here). But you have to give yourself the guts to actually try to take steps toward your aspirations. What are you going to do with the realizations we were handed over Leo season? Creating more dissonance isn’t going to settle the storm that is coming, it’s just going to get you even more disoriented. You have to have a clear head and balance your checkbook, your health and your devotional work. Dissonance is what got us in this mess in the first place. There is no perfection or utopia, only constant transformation. Virgo provides the structure while Pisces reminds us that all structures can be shattered. We must realize we are a part of something larger than us, something that moves with it’s own intentions, and we must learn how to become vessels for it. We must listen to mother nature when she speaks, and we must respond to our intuition when it urges us that we are on the wrong path. Depression and desperation may follow this moon if you do not accept the power and the paradox of life. When you are being called to let a part of yourself die, you’ve got to let it die.

Jupiter (The Chariot) and Saturn (7 of Pentacles)-  Jupiter in Libra is coming to an end, and in a month’s time we will enter a darker and colder world. Get use to the feeling of drowning, because Jupiter in Scorpio will bring with it the immensity of our collective shadow. You made your “soulmate” alliances and broke alliances that needed to break before they broke you during this year long transit. You ended relationships that were hindering you, not balancing you, and thus you found your partners in crime. You saw yourself reflected in others in ways you could have never imagined, and now you are being called to explore deeper, richer philosophies and worlds ahead of us.  There is no way to evacuate from this one. We are stuck, ready to bear down the storm that is at our gates. But we have allies!  And we must not forget this, and in the depths, although it is lonely, we will know that we are truly never alone. Winter 2017 and the year of 2018 will be some dark astro, so we have to dig our heels into the reality of our situation and get to problem solving (Saturn as 7 of Pentales). We have to fully cultivate things to life, and sitting around commenting on how beautiful a garden is isn’t going to make the crops grow. True, gritty, dirty work is what brings the cornucopia. These are our last few months of Saturn in Sagittarius before we must face the bone crushing 2 and a half years of Saturn in Capricorn.  So become water, allow yourself to escape through any chasms you can find, and go with the flow no matter how dangerous our landscape may get. If you freak out, you will drown. You must remain sharp and also go with the flow, which is a hard balance to keep – but this moon will be a great lesson for that. You will most likely fall into a hopeless depression during this time, and, I mean, how the fuck can I blame you? Our world is literally on fire and underwater and we have mad kings ruler over us. What is a soul to do? Fight like hell, I suppose, until our very last breath. I hear drowning is the worst sort of death, and I’m not having any of that.

Total Solar Eclipse in Leo – Ragnarok

Originally published on Heretical Oracles under the pen name Artemis.

But if you write a version of Ragnarok in the twenty-first century, it is haunted by the imagining of a different end of things. We are a species of animal which is bringing about the end of the world we were born into. Not out of evil or malice, or not mainly, but because of a lopsided mixture of extraordinary cleverness, extraordinary greed, an extraordinary proliferation of our own kind, and a biologically built-in short-sightedness.”  – A.S. Byatt, “Ragnarok”

Heretics, are you ready for the first total eclipse over the United States since this country’s inception?  This one will define us, rebirth us, and give us a new path as a country. If you haven’t had a chance to check it out yet, your Oracles did a podcast talking astro and this eclipse and what it could mean for the USA and the rest of the world (click here to listen recorded on August 1, 2017).  This eclipse falls on top of the fixed star Regulus, the heart of the lion. This is the portal to the west, so astrologers suspect this particular eclipse will have a lot to say about where the Western world will go next. What is especially important about this eclipse is that it is a part of a particular eclipse family named Saros 145, which as a series has landed on the impeachment of Clinton, the attempted assassination of Reagan, the assassination of JFK, the suicide of Hitler and bombing of Japan, the Chicago riots, and the attempted assassination of President Taft.  Here’s more synchronicity for you – this one falls directly on the ascendant of our current president, #45, Donald Trump (who will also be going through a Mars and Jupiter return). Our leader will surely feel fearless at this time, and will be acting rashly without much thought. As this is a Leo eclipse, it will surely affect the ruler of our country, stoke the flames of nationalism, and bring countries into a pissing match over territory.

Can we make it through the fires, or is this the beginning of our karma (as a country and as people)?  When the lion headed goddess Sekhmet rises to destroy the demons that plague the earth, she does not stop until her bloody thirst is quenched. With this Eclipse happening, for the first time, in progressed Regulus into Virgo, it seems that the dark feminine has been let loose and the melding of man and beast is coming into a new stage. How can we reconcile the bestial and the human sides of ourselves? How can we make peace with the starkness of reality? How can we accept our karma with open arms, ready to learn vital lessons?  Do not fear, Heretics. Walk into this one with courage, for it will teach harsh but vital lessons. The fires are being stoked, the gods are being called, and the karma of this country has come around… The question is, will we use the lessons of the Aquarius counter Eclipse to rebel and assert our human rights, or will we be distracted and broken into pieces once again to be ruled over with ease?

The Sun (Sowillo), Moon (Algiz), Venus (Kenaz), Chiron (Ansuz) and Uranus (Othala)- Sowillo, the sun, Leo, the King, the Lion; ruled by the sun. We will hear his roar reverberating through our politics for years to come as this pivotal moment peels away the layers of the United States, allowing us to see the rot underneath clearer than ever before. It’s like shining a flashlight into a den of cockroaches, lighting their underworld on fire so that they must scurry away in fear of what is coming for them.  It’s hard to stomach the fact that these vermin live in the sewers of our world, biding their time and slowly infiltrating every unaware crevice of society. The decades between us and the past have not eroded it. The powerful few have invaded our archetypes and painted them in special little ways, making it impossible for any soul to fit into the vessels except for their souls and their ancestor’s souls. Essentially, like lions, they have pissed around their parameter and we are too afraid to cross it and contend with them.

With Venus in the tender sign of Cancer, she is agitated as all hell by Pluto’s prodding… But she must wake up. The hurt and the pain we all share, the trauma since this country’s inception, is being pulled to the surface like a magnet whether we are ready for it or not. For Venus, I pulled Kenaz, “the torch,” which after last weekend holds a special significance. People will hold their values tightly during this time, feeling that their ancestry lights the way toward where they should be going. The problem is, we live in a melting pot and our ancestry and culture has been influenced by so many cultures that we have brought in and digested. It is not our duty to just follow one line. It is our duty to follow all the tributaries and find the river that binds them all together; in the end we must all come together to form a great alliance to further this planet past our atmosphere and to heal the damage we have done to it based on our “cleverness” and “greed” and shortsightedness; a true Ragnarok.

You must do this in your personal life as well. As above so below. Find all the tributaries that seem to have no connection, and bring them all to the spine of your life. Find a real purpose, deep down, that resonates through ancestor after ancestor until it got to you – through various cultures and all historical lines, until you were born with your own special purpose. Look to your family line for your sparks of intuition (Uranus as Othala). You will find stories you have always been waiting for. What is the spine of your life?  Kenaz is intuition, the inborn knowledge that you can tap into if you are fearless about diving into the underworld of yourself. Your ancestors were good, they were bad, they were menacing and they were beautiful and they fell, and “they are all equal now.” They all have something they desperately want to tell you. With Pluto influencing Venus, it is time to dig deep into your heart and see why it truly beats, and cast away the demons that keep it scared. There is a roaring purpose for you, and you must dive into it fearlessly. If you do not, you will surely lose yourself and just become a tool for someone else to use. You will be part of the very substance that infects this planet instead of helping it flourish. Kenaz reminds us that we do not have the truth right now, but we must search for the truth. We are given a very rare opportunity right now to uncover something deep  in the micro and the macro… shall we take it? Will you jump into this sacred passageway? 

Chiron is Ansuz, and Ansuz tells us to listen. There is a cry of pain, of trauma, and just as trauma reverberates through our genetic line and the evolution of society. Listen intently to exactly what people are saying, whether you can stomach it or not, and you will find where their pain and their true weakness lies. This is the key, so to speak, the critical information we need in order to heal this world and to heal our lives. Listen… to your own words, the ones you use most prominently, the pace of your speech, why you react the way you do, and follow it. Follow all the pain and see where it truly comes from… there, you will find your true power emanating from the core of your pain. What dire lesson does it teach, and how does it sing your hero’s journey to accept it?  The summer is coming to an end, Heretics, and our shadows are creeping once more…

Walls, walls everywhere, bubbles and isolation. People still hate on individuals based on who a person is, who they love, and how they express themselves – that they are “other” simply because they do not conform to the dominating culture – the colonized culture that came here and destroyed any of its competition. The rich/Royals (Leo) don’t want to lose their power, their culture, their station because change is fucking scary for them. They are the ones who set up our centralized government, our laws, and kept themselves on top. They are the ones who bastardized democracy, where politicians must be servants, and made politicians rulers instead. Didn’t we chop off all the rulers’ heads?

For the first time since our observation of the star Regulus in Leo, procession has moved Regulus into Virgo where we realize that rulers must SERVE (And all men must serve, as G.R.M. so beautifully puts). They are afraid of this, and with Mars in Leo accompanying this eclipse, tribalism is growing – “blood and soil.” Why would one serve if one can rule? Synchronicity, I pulled the rune of “blood and soil,” the Nazi chant, when I pulled Othala for the planet Uranus. Our King of Chaos has been in Aries, alongside the minor planet Eris, giving us war drums for over a year and a half now – warning of us of the inevitable conflict to come. These two met up the last time in 1932, the year the Nazi party was formed and the stirrings of WWII began. With Othala joining them during this reading, the symbolism sends chills up my spine. It means we will be reclaiming our heritage, and sometimes people can’t see their ancestors as humans but still look to them as gods.

Although there is a lot of turmoil at our gates, Heretics, the moon as Algiz is telling us we are protected; that is, protected if we grow courageous through this Leonine energy. Our home has been threatened, Heretics. We must protect those we love who rely on us. We get to choose our future, Heretics, and we get to choose if we sat on the sidelines in cowardice or if we tried to truly become peacemakers. There is always a sense of “hidden dangers” when this rune comes up, as it is a protection rune and often times a dire warning. There are dangers that we are not aware of stirring in the darkness, but with Algiz we can cast away this fear and act on the information we are presented with. We are offered an opportunity to engage with our higher selves right now, to see higher images of how the world can be, and we are only granted opportunity if we have the courage to take it. History favors the bold. Algiz asks us to accept accountability for what we have done, to realize that we have inflicted pain due to our unconscious behaviors (the moon) and that we must confront our shadow side humbly. We will be driven crazy if we do not; lunacy and detraction from the true reality of things. If you are brave enough to understand your demons, you will be given the opportunity, the tools, and the weapons needed, to join the discovery of the demons of the masses.

Mercury (Ehwaz) and Neptune (Fehu)-  Ever wake up one day and realize your friends are totally different people? I mean, yeah, the one or two hang in there for life, and you evolve with each other. But then there are those that are no longer your homies and you wonder if you will ever have them return again. The positive side? There will be those that you want to see again showing their faces. This is the time, Heretics, when old karmic relationships may appear again, and old karmic places may make a returning debut, calling you to them.  It’ll feel like deja vu, in both the macro and the micro, like we have seen all this before and we have a vague feeling about where we are actually going. Like dreams have actually been leading us to places we need to go (Neptune as Fehu).  Rune Secrets says about the rune Ehwaz, “The mind will trust the body, the body will trust the mind.”  Trust in your animal instincts, the same ones you came into deep contact with during the Capricorn full moon. Your body wants to show you the way, but you keep muddling it with your mind. And your body fears and jumps at things without listening to the logic of the mind. They must work together right now, because their harmony is what will keep us on our toes during this time of great danger. The rune “Ehwaz” literally translates to “horse.” This is because this rune is trying to invoke a feeling, an archetype, that tells us what it means to be two separate things working together; the human and horse relationship, the mind and body relationship, the friendship. You dance, you sway, you move in symbiosis. These things have returned in your life because there is a vital lesson you must learn. There is a reason you fell off that horse last time, so to speak.

They want us to feel divided because it is easier to destroy us in pieces than as one giant opposition. Neptune comes to us as Fehu, and tells us that we are staring a new story – a spiral, “the same” returning again but with a new mask. The Norse believed that courageous acts bolstered your luck, and so too in astrology doing courageous acts bring you the opportunity (Jupiter). This is the rune of expansion and luck, new beginnings, and circulation. The flames are being heightened by this breath of idealism, in everyone – in the peaceful and the violent. Don’t let your enemies get the best of this energy while you sit back. Although their idealism may be raised, you can use this energy to feed your solar plexus – give yourself that unshakable sense of purpose and courage that comes along with it. Fehu tells us to be present and act from that presence, and actually focusing on what is going on around us instead of falling into the midst of the imaginative mind. If we are present, we are the circulating wind, we can move any which way we wish, and that includes blowing out idealism with a well-placed breath.  Protest by the shout of art, not fists, and you will see the Tower crumble.

Mars (Kenaz), Jupiter (Perthro), Saturn (Ihwaz) and Pluto (Jera)- Change comes whether we like it or not, and usually it is bloody and chaotic like giving birth (Pluto as Jera). A new world is birthing right now, and it’s not going to be pretty for anyone unless we all realize that we are all on the same fucking side – the human side, and each person’s experience is as vital as the last. Everyone holds responsibility. It is not, “so what are you going to do to change it?” or “What are we going to do to change it?” but “What am I going to do to change it, to change myself, to illuminate the crevices inside myself and see that I am not wholly a saint.” No one is a saint, and if you can’t admit that about yourself, this battle will never be won. We all have a shadow we must dance with, and if you cannot see your shadow, you’ll get stabbed in the dark. The sun is bright in Leo, but his shadow will be cast as the moon blots out his light. How will he feel when his shadow side is revealed? How will he panic? How will he react? Will it be flight or fight? Shiva has begun dancing, and worlds crumble in his wake. Jera is the cycle, the spiral, the seasons, the ever returning pattern. It takes patience and knowing and intimate understanding to bring forth a garden, and we must realize that things have been slowly manifesting over long periods of time. Look at the great web of history and see what the patterns are and do not scoff when you see them appearing – they are telling a very real story that we repeat like a song. Although the world re-births countless times over, it’s waves of creation and destruction are purposeful.

“Obstacles do not block the path, they are the path.” -Zen Proverb  Saturn as Ihwaz. We must pace ourselves. I know you want all the answers right now, Heretic, but you cannot have them. You have to pass trails for a reason, and instant gratification awlays rots the soul just like it rots the teeth. There is a reason they say having a Kundalini Awakening early destroys you – drives you mad with a thousand volts of insanity. The problem with insanity is, you have no fucking idea you are wandering into territory that is so far removed from the rest of humanity’s path. A human being does not have the capacity to take that much freedom, to understand that death is wholly a natural, not frightening, aspect of life. Until you, as a being, hold no fear in your heart, you cannot handle the infinite expansiveness. You will always balk at it’s energy, the full story will destroy you just like looking into the face of God. The problem is, you wont accept what you see there – like a serpentine snake eternally swallowing it’s tail, there is ever only yourself. You wont return, like a Bodhisattva, to speak of what you saw in language that is comprehensible. You will be dribbling and incoherent, not a translator but a madman.

Mmm, Jupiter, the god who would most likely, of all the gods, be caught gambling, is throwing the lot cup – perthro.  Our fate lies in our magick, our art, our manifestations. Although we cannot change the stage, the script, or the props we are dealt, it is up to us to play the part in our own way. Again we are called to recognize patterns. There are parts of ourselves that are manifesting things, our subconscious making us choose things time and time again. It is time to recognize those patterns and see what the hidden part of yourself wants, what the hidden philosophical ideal of your soul is. How do you destroy your chances? Do you manifest your future via your will, or are you under the spell of your subconscious?  And can there be a balanced middle ground?

Mars as Kenaz.  So you know a lot of shit. Now put that knowledge to use. Can you harness the force inside yourself and use it?  We are being called to make a choice now. The Aquarius New Moon should have taught us we do not need permission to act. We do not need permission to decent. And we do not need permission to remove a problem if we see fit. We must take action instead of sitting and allowing our lives in the micro and our lives in the macro fall to pieces. There comes a time when the student has learned all they can learn from the teacher, and then they must act upon their knowledge. You are being called to this. Leo is all about having the courage to build your own world, your own personality, your own creative endeavors. It is time to grow up and realize that no one is in charge of us. We are the emperors of our own life. This does not mean arrogance. This means harmony with those around you because they are emperors of their own lives as well. With both Venus and Mars coming up as the same rune, the true illumination is a re balancing of the world. And when things re-balance, things need to shift. Time to get things moving.

 

 

Lunar Eclipse in Aquarius – Kingdom Come

Originally published on Heretical Oracles under the pen name Artemis.

“Never forget that the most political thing you can ever do is follow your heart.” -RuPaul

Effective Date: August 7th, 2017

Oh dear lordt, Heretics, the Great American Eclipses are on the horizon, and this first one is just getting us on deck for the blazing ball of raw energy that is the Total Eclipse in Leo on the 21st of August. Are you ready to be stripped raw? Are you ready to listen when you are told where you should be going and what you should be doing?  The few weeks leading up to this eclipse will have people deciding quite vehemently their next step in their story, and it will be stirring up quite the awakenings in its way. All of us that were able to sludge through the emotional, heart horror that was Cancer season will now be rewarded with what comes from such deep, intense introspection. Those of us that didn’t give up will be given a chance to start something truly profound – the next level in this grand tale. This lunation is all about us – very micro – where the next one will be very, very macro and political. Give yourself strength and draw from this moon or we will all be doormats when the Leo lunation comes roaring. It’s time for us rebels to find a cause.

Sun (4 of Swords), Moon (High Priestess), Jupiter (8 of Cups), and Pluto (Ace of Cups)- I was talking to my girlfriend about these coming great American eclipses over dinner the other night. As we were getting up to leave, two men walk in with shaved heads. One of them had a fresh new tattoo on the back of his scull that read, “Don’t Tread On Me” with a coiled snake, poised to attack. “Libertarian,” I mused, and then the idea that this lunar eclipse is in play with Mars crept up to the forefront of my mind. I got a creepy, crawly feeling up my spine and realized what a mess of projections this moon is going to be. Mars opposite the Moon is highly instinctual, battle ready, poised to feel out the enemies next move at any moment. The problem is, when the Mars/Moon energy has nothing to fight, when there is peace being offered on the table and a joke or two being made, they will pick out the most trivial things to blow up into a conflict. Oppositions are like a seesaw – if we choose one side over the other we lose the balance and end up destroying momentum. You cannot live in your instincts to dominate and assert your ego and you cannot lord over everyone with your emotions during this moon. Those with power will assert it like frightened children, paranoid that everyone around them is readying their forces to usurp the crown. My cards are telling me there needs to be a bolstering, a healing of your ego is vitally important.Tensions are high, especially with a total Eclipse only a few weeks away (oh boy oh boy, wait til you hear about THAT one!), and the god of Chaos (Uranus) is getting ready to station for his retrograde – followed closely behind by a Mercury retrograde.

Head or heart, friend or enemy? People possess us like ideas, and they become a vital part of our ego. Psychic bonds are impossible to severe if we cannot surgically remove every part of the other person, and with every day that passes we integrate ourselves even further – making the entanglement a permanent structure of our lives. We must submit to the fact that they are an integrated part of us forever. This moon is the alchemical melding of mind and heart, that what the heart seeks out is to merge with everything around it; the Leo/Aquarius dichotomy. So stand back, inspect with a bit of chilly detachment, and orchestrate the pieces of your life together without feeling ill that certain people are a part of it. Without those horrible experiences, you wouldn’t have the fissures necessary to let the light in. Now, what do you see, Heretics, when you allow the illumination to happen without huddling away from it in fear?

Mercury (Magician), Venus (8 of Wands), Mars (Ace of Swords), and Neptune (9 of Pentacles)- This moon is dead poised on relationships. I got a stirring that things back from Venus Retrograde in Aries (Spring time hell) will be returning. Ghosts of the past wanting another knock at you now that Venus is kicked and shoved into the emotional wreck of a sign; Cancer. Stop being so sensitive, says the moon in Aqua, but Venus is back in a feminine water sign after being hardened for almost all of 2017 up until this point. And fuck, she is still getting shitty aspects and is stationed behind the sun while Mars is swooping in front of it. The fact is; you think you have to fight these people but really you just have to expose their raw emotions to themselves. They are begging, looking for a mirror, hoping you will provide it. They are lost in their waters and obviously something about you makes them feel anchored.

The thing is, though, this moon wants us to drop all of the bullshit of 2017 up until now. Hell, it wants us to literally clear the skeletons in our closet since January – and all the emotional bullshit we decided right then to get rid of that somehow kept popping back up like a wack a mole for months to come. I know Venus Rx was a weird time for most of us, bringing back sniveling ex lovers that either made up with us or showed us once again what pieces of shit they were. The stragglers will be coming out around this eclipse, either reconciling and becoming friends or getting the judgement of God. You reap what you sow, and that includes energy you have put into people in the past.

But hell, this moon is also telling us to charge with our ideas and ideals. You have the tools that it is going to take to make your dreams come true – literally manifest them into reality if you put the intention out this full moon. I know it seems like a long shot, but you undervalue your abilities at every turn. How many times do you have to be told that you are good at what you do? Most successful people were run into a wall and kept fighting their way out because giving up on your dreams is as good as death. You are going to get a fresh breath of air after a grueling few months of getting beat every time you try to come up. Remember the motivation of last Leo season? Well, it’s back in full force – this time stronger and wiser than it was last year.

Saturn (5 of Cups), Chiron (Hangman), Uranus (Temperance)-  Funny that Helios says the gods are watching, waiting, because Hangman and Temperance tell me the same sort of thing. Uranus has let go, reversing his course and allowing us to take full control of our lives and our world. What will we do with it? What will we do when the gods give us permission to make the next move? And, are they really letting us choose for ourselves or do they have some secret plan to fuck our shit up, fam? Saturn has been retrograde for quite some time, demanding that we re-forge ourselves – become harder and sharper. But fuck, you’ve run into some disappointments there, haven’t you? No matter how you try and improve yourself, some bullshit comes in the way.

Here’s the thing, though, Heretics, this is an opening in the sky where the struggles of the past couple of months will go on the wayside. You have actually been getting opportunities whispered into your ear for a while now but have been ignoring them due to your disappointment and depression at that disappointment. The thing is, sometimes the road out isn’t the one we have been dumping all of our effort into. Sometimes the road out is something that we have been putting very little effort into – because it is just something that is naturally workable or passionate in us – yet we don’t believe it is something viable for our future. Shut the hell up and put your faith in it now, Heretics, because the Total Eclipse in Leo is coming in 2 weeks and you are going to get the fire you need to do what you have to do. Sit with yourself, detach, and really think about it… when the dust settles, what is it that you truly love doing? What is it about you that could benefit all of humanity if you improved upon it, shining brightly and standing firmly in it?  Yeah, do that. Start doing that now, and don’t let anything get in your way.

 

New Moon in Leo – Flare

Originally published on Heretical Oracles under the pen name Artemis.

“Part of me suspects that I’m a loser, and the other part of me thinks I’m God Almighty.” – John Lennon

So here is our practice run before the big shows, Heretics. This lunation is asking for honesty, bravery, and a belief in yourself that you may have long ago cast away. It’s easy to have given up on the world by now, especially in the horrific state it is in and the inevitable declination of our civilization as we know it. But in this fall, this is where the heroes are truly born and made. This is where we find out who rises to the challenge, and who withers away as an extra on the set, a parable for all others to see what inaction truly does to the soul.

The Sun (4 of Pentacles), The Moon (Justice), and Mars (6 of Cups)-  The cards say “pleasure” (Crowley’s name for the 6 of Cups) and a healthy dose of meltdowns to pair that heat. With Leo, we always get an element of drama as individuals are projecting their personas to a magnified degree during the season of The Sun (Leo’s ruling planet). This new moon is an attitude adjuster (Justice card) aka, perhaps, it is an opportunity to get some real personality editing going on; assimilating your personality toward your true will.  What do you want to be, deep down at your core, Heretics? What is the fuel of your cause? Your persona is a weapon for getting you there. That is the whole 5th House in Astrology (ruled by Leo and the Sun). It is about what you project into the world that represents a part of your make-up; children, art, personality, romance.

Have you ever run into anyone with a sense of pure magnetism? Why do you think that is? Most likely, because they are projecting from their very core – powerfully, knowing that they are present and no one can shame them from their existence. There is definitely such a thing as false ego, Heretics, and that may create a fireworks effect. But if you stick around long enough, you will see the smoke clear and the ash sitting in its place. When you project from your core, there is no running out of fuel. Try and figure out the difference, and experiment with this difference in the coming Leo season. What ignites this magnetism? The blood and fire of bravery. And look here, folks, we have Mars mixed up in the middle of this New Moon, demanding courage. Project your true self, in your art, in your persona – which itself is an art-form… The more deluded your idea of the self, the more deluded and frightening your persona.  Your ego is there to protect you, to navigate you, not to delude you into a trap.

Mercury (3 of Pentacles), Uranus (3 of Wands), and Chiron (Page of Swords)-  It’s all fake, folks, the glitter the glam the perfection that is fed to us each day. It’s all a bunch of rubbish. We are all as broken as the person next to us, and there is truly no such thing as fully being healed from traumas. We just learn to adapt, even though we are frightened, even though we have doubt and pain, we learn to take a leap instead. Your pain is your master until you decide to muster up the fire to escape, to fight it, and to live with the fact that it may hunt you down your entire life. But wouldn’t you rather have that bit of freedom and exploration than live in hell for a minute longer?  It is time to speak your mind, Heretics, and if that involves having a stiff drink beforehand so be it.  Muster up the courage to meet with the person you have been needing to meet with, apologize to the individuals that played a huge part in your growth, re-connect with family that has fallen away. Cut away the unhealthy ego so that the healthy, true pride can begin to manifest – pride in your actual work, your actual word, not some fantasized perceived garbage.  Again, remember, we are all broken, so there is always a place for us to meet minds and hearts.

Venus (Hangman) and Saturn (2 of Cups)-  It’s true, vision is a bit clearer right now. Especially vision concerning the heart. More ego talk…  Hangman is a good reference to giving away your ego in order to see the other side, and true structure – the truth of the matter – is found when people honestly speak what is inside their hearts to one another (2 of Cups for Saturn).  Sometimes we think that if we give in and admit our wrongdoing that we will somehow be destroyed. This isn’t the case at all. If you live in a world of lies, those lies morph you slowly but surely into a monster you wouldn’t choose to be. This is how skeletons build in closets; secrets upon secrets hidden away as you pretend you had no real part in any wrong doing. That you were merely a victim of circumstance!  All situations take two to tango, so figure out what your role was in the prison that you live in now. Admitting to this brings you one step closer to freedom, true freedom, where you see the world for how it really is instead of merely as you wish it could be. Wishing it “could be” is why we stay in horrible situations, friendships, relationships and so forth.  This applies to the micro as well as the macro; the state of the world is not something that only certain people have control over… it is all of us. We all choose to play along or not play along.

Jupiter (8 of Cups), Neptune (Ace of Swords), and Pluto (3 of Swords)-  There’s nowhere to run, Heretics. You are about to get caught red handed in something or other. And, you know, this wont be so bad. Living in the lie, as we have seen, is the worst part of the experience. Joy comes from walking away (Jupiter as 8 of Cups), and a cutting away at illusion with pure truth (Ace of Swords as Neptune).  Pain will be our transformation – and yes, lighting yourself on fire to turn what once was into ash is never a pleasant experience. This new moon is your signal flare, your warning of the next two lunations to come that will rock our world. The eclipses will be the first seen in the Americas since its inception, and right over the star Regulus – the king maker- which seems ominous to say the least. In order to step into this fire and come out the other side, you are going to need to cast away your guilt, your fear, and your Cancer season woe’s behind you. You’re all cried out, and now we need some bravery.  Pluto wont let you out of the underworld without you fully exposing every part of yourself, and the only reason you are hanging back is because there is something that scares the shit out of you enough for you to stay in such a horrible limbo. You want to get out, don’t you?  You cry and lament and pound your fists about getting out all the time, so why don’t you just LOOK? Dig deep and honestly speak what that is this new moon and you’ll be ready for the next two monstrous lunations ahead…